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Song: Crash Into Me

Artist: Dave Matthews Band

You’ve got your ball,
You’ve got your chain
Tied to me tight, tie me up again.
Who’s got their claws
In you my friend?
Into your heart I’ll beat again

Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock,
And sweet you roll
Lost for you, I’m so lost for you
Oh, and you come crash into me

And I come into you
And I come into you
In a boy’s dream
In a boy’s dream

Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I’m bare-boned and crazy… for you.

Oh, and you come crash into me
Baby, and I come into you
In a boy’s dream
In a boy’s dream

And if I’ve gone overboard
Then I’m begging you
To forgive me
In my haste
When I’m holding you so girl,
Close to me

Oh and you come crash into me, yeah
Baby, and I come into you

Hike up your skirt a little more
And show your world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show your world to me
In a boy’s dream
In a boy’s dream

Oh, I watch you there
Through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing, but you
Wear it so well
Tied up and twisted,
The way I’d like to be
For you, for me, come crash into me, baby
Come crash into me, yeah
Crash into me…
Crash into me…
Crash into me…

You know, I’m the king of the castle,
And you’re the dirty rascal, crash into me.
Please crash into me, baby…

Oh, no no no…
Yes,
I see the wave come and crash into me.
I See the wave come and crash into me.
Crash into me.

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The first time I encountered this song was on an interview of my Chemistry teacher in Junior year. I was a Features writer for my school paper and I was part of a team who interviewed new teachers at our school. I was lucky. I got my Chemistry teacher. He’s a really cool guy. Totally smart, real witty, such a smart-ass. Plus, mine and his taste in music, totally in sync.

 

I did not fully appreciate how cool he was until after he was let go, only a year after teaching. I went to an all-girls overly doctrinal Catholic school. Obviously, the admin was threatened by him. So they let him go.

 

Anyway, i did an interview with him and one of my questions was (the only question to which i remember his answer to), “"If you could describe your life with one song, what will it be?” and he gives me this song. I did not ask why. Now, i regret not doing so.

 

I was 16, what was i supposed to think of this song? Here’s some unknown new teacher, first few weeks into the school year, and he’s telling me that the song to describe his is DMB’s Crash into Me?? I was so dense, i couldn’t even write it into the article. now that i think about it, what prompted me to ask that question in the first place?

 

I’m glad i did. If not for his answer, i would’ve not known of this song until probably later in life. i know, loser.

 

I’ve been thinking a lot about this song. What it means, what the symbolisms are. What can ‘hike up your skirt a little more’ mean? Am i to take it literally?

 

When I listen to it though, i realize how beautiful yet heartbreaking it is.

 

Excuse the language, but I feel like i can say this better in Filipino.

 

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Napakahirap na hindi tumitig sa yong mga pilik-mata habang nagsasalita ka. Pasensya, paminsan, hindi ko na naiintindihan ang kwento mo. Walang ibang deskripsyon – nabibighani talaga ako sa yo.

 

Korni na kung korni, pero tuwi na lang magkatabi tayo, kagaya ngayon, mahirap pigilan na hindi ngumiti. Siguro, mukha akong sira na nakatitig lang sa yo. Paminsan, naiisip ko na baka napapansin mo na.

 

Kapag nagsasalita ka, tapos may reaksyon akong kakaiba, natatawa ka. Nawawala yung mga mata mo pag tumatawa ka. Mayroon ding maliit na kunot sa ilong mo.

 

Nung unang beses kitang napatawa, napansin ko na kaagad yun. Siguro, siguro lang naman, yun ang paborito kong imahe.

 

Dito sa bench sa Caf, maraming tao parati na umaaligid para kunin ang upuan natin. Pero, dito, sa bench sa Caf, kahit maraming tao, ikaw lang ang napapansin ko. Mahirap hindi mahumaling sa yo.

 

Kahit ikwento mo yong kaklase mong gago na parati kang iniinis, o kaya yung lakad ninyo ng barkada mo, o kaya yung mga prublema nyo sa bahay, masaya ako na ako ang naiisip mong kwentuhan ng mga ito.

 

Nung unang beses mo kong iniyakan, napag desisyonan ko na na aalagaan kita.

 

Kasi sila, lahat sila, marahil ay hindi nakikita kung ano ang nakikita ko sa yo. Ang haba ng yong pilik-mata, yang tikwas ng buhok mo, yang kinang ng mga mata mo, at ang mapupula mong labi, hindi yan ang bumighani sa kin.

 

Ikaw. Ikaw lang.

 

Kaya uupo ako rito sa tabi mo, sa harap ng lahat ng tao, habang hinihintay kang ikwento naman ang kwento natin.

 

 

© Maia Vida : February 6, 2010